Jumping out the window with this one.....

So last night was amazing! I saw the only artist (BEYONCE) I am a FAN for perform and it was breathtaking. This is my 3rd time seeing her and every time it is just a experience beyond words. I have so much respect for this woman beyond her ability to just drop it and carry a tune. Her work ethic is incredible and that's obvious when you watch her in action. It takes a woman of a certain character, strength, and determination to be able to deliver the way she does, and you can't do that overnight.

This is not a Beyonce post. This is a post to say that I was truly inspired but some of the things she said during her show. She took her audience down a memory lane of all her trials and tribulations. She explained how she was rejected and rejected again so many times before she actually got her big break. She went on to explain the significance behind her now album entitled "4" and how much the number 4 means to her and her family.

One thing that I appreciated throughout each of her stories was the consistency of "bravery" that came up. In addition to her putting her pride to the side when it came down to things that really mattered in her life.

We allow our pride to get the best of us in many areas in our lives. When people try to advise us, and tell us what they think, we roll it off our backs and will fight to the end just to save our pride. Then there are the times when we may have strong feelings about someone or something but we will minimize them to save our pride. Or, we don't know the answerer's sometimes and we then are afraid to ask because we feel that our pride might be damaged. The underlying and more bigger issue is really not pride BUT "fear".

Fear will keep you dead while you are alive. It breeds and multiplies fast and it is when we can conquer our fears we have already won half the battle. I am someone who has always had so much pride. Love has taught me that you have to check that at the door sometimes. To be in love you have to give all of yourself...not just a little bit. You have to expose your vulnerabilities and be able to accept that you do not have it all figured out. When you are truly in love you give it all you have. When I speak of being in love do not just limit that to relationships. It is everything life has to offer. That is why they say always do what you love because only then will you express your full potential.

I feel blessed so many times over that God has allowed the closest people in my life to serve as mirrors to behavior that I once demonstrated that just wasn't of my higher self. That is love, and when things hit the fan you are able to sit reflect and check your pride at the door.

To sum it up...all I say is jump out the window for things you truly believe in. NO MATTER WHAT THEY SAY!

God knows best and you know best for you. No one will ever know who is right for you, what you should do, where you should live, why you should work there and not some place else and the list can go on. You have to be in tuned with God and in tuned with your spirit and once you are you can listen to it! He always makes a way. Stay positive and believe that you can have anything your heart truly desires if you are willing to put aside your pride and do what it takes.

Life is short and so is time and who has time to sit and worry about things that do not matter. Make your today great and know that only your future is what you make it to be. So if it turns out unexpected look to yourself as to why.

LIVE and be purposeful... LOVE and be Honest...Be in your moment.

CREATE

We are the sum of the choices we have made before TODAY.

I sit and listen to the rain pound the windows and I can almost relate to the drop hanging off the seal. I had to let my daughter go and spend time with her father today and she is going to another state for a week. This may not sound like a big deal but it is to me. I have always been protective, and over bearing I will admit when to comes to my "moomoo", but these days things have seem to intensify.

Six years ago when I decided to have her, it was done without planning...it was me being young, thinking of just the minutes that held me at the time...not the tomorrows. We all fall victim to what feels good at the moment...but there is always something that is greater working and trying to clue you in to what the reality is. Well...I did not listen to that clue nor did I see it. I went with it...and she came.. and God knows she has been a beautiful blessing in my life and my being, but as they say everything has balance and something as beautiful as she comes with a price.

The price in this case is ..her father and I have not mutually agreed to come together to make a family unit for her with each other. We never truly saw things eye to eye and for some reason maybe we thought a child would help...but it doesn't. So God says here ...take this....the most precious gift you can have and now what? Well...nothing changes...people don't. Life happens....and now you have a life beside your own to cater, nurture, and make sure it is going down the right path.

If I learned anything from that past experience it is....when it comes to relationships...it takes TWO...and both have to be on the same page and agree to get to the same goal no matter how each chooses to get there...as long as both are striving. I am not saying he was lacking or I wasn't. Who is to blame becomes a lost cause ..a lost thought....and a place of irrelevancy. WE were the cause.

When the spilt happened I was fine. I never been more sure about anything in my life. The days, weeks and months after were fine until you deal with the present. My daughter has to leave me for a week because she has to spend time with her daddy right? Well..I sometimes have to get a grip. I just always wanted to have that strong family unit as I grew up in, that I benefited from. I must say fortunately my daughter is blessed to have a big family on both sides and she gets immense love from everyone...but it breaks me down to know that her time must be split. There are moments, experience that she will share and I will have nothing to do with it. As a mother you want to share EVERY moment that matters, that builds and teaches her something but based on the choices I have made...they will affect us both.

So ....instead of sulk, I rise. I give thanks for every single thread of wisdom that God has placed on my heart. Every single person who loves me and appreciates me and every situation that is happening to teach and prepare me for the joy to come. Life is good. She is healthy, she has people who really care for and love her in ways that are unexplainable. I am learning to cope and to accustom myself to the lifestyle that has been created.

I will always do my best to be her hero, protect her and love her unconditionally and provide the best possible means for her future. I take solace in knowing that GOD is in the mix always and this was meant for us...for now. Tomorrow looks bright and the future is ours for the taking.

This post was a therapy release....I do feel better even though I miss her much! DAY 1.

Affirm your results....

Affirmation. How often do you proclaim what you want and believe in it? I have found that this can have great effects on a persons life and existence. There is so much negativity surrounding us when we walk out our doors that it amazes me how some of us are able to think straight. There are always distractions, evil intentions, toxic people and situations ready to feed off of our clean pure hearts, but sometimes we as humans get caught up in these exact things and it pushes us back a few steps.

So many times happiness comes and wraps its arms around us and we feel like we are floating through life. We just want that moment to last forever, and then like a rapture in the night something starts to slowly take your happiness away. What your happiness is can be very specific to the person, but you know when you are in bliss. It can be a new job, a new mate, a new apartment, a moment of self-reflection, time with a loved one, the birth of a new baby, the list can go on. These can be some of the most joyous occasions in our life and we want them to last forever. Unfortunately, due to the balance of the world, there will always be something lurking to steal your joy. If it wasn't it would not be life. Our focus should not be on the fact that something will always try to steal your joy but on how we can prepare and react to it, so we deal with it in the most positive way.

I believe it is imperative to have some spiritual guard and a connection with GOD. You need it to keep you anchored in your positive space and to keep your happiness. Affirmation is a powerful tool because the things that we truly want the most can exist in our lives and in our world. Sometimes we loose faith in ourselves and our own power gets diminished because we allowed it to. We must simply constantly affirm the things we want and what we need. It takes discipline and will to continue coaching and encouraging ourelsves. It is so easy to always look for someone else to lift us up but it is when we can always depend on ourselves to lift us up we have tapped into that power and we need to sustain it.

On this day I know who I am...I know what I want, I know where I am going and I am fully ready to embrace all the things that come with that. I know Love and I proclaim it. I know peace and I proclaim it. I know God. What are your affirmations? Keep them positive.

The heat is on...

There is something about the warm temperatures that makes the little diva in me start to surge. I know this is true for many of my ladies...because I start to see you put on your skirts, dresses, high heels, fitted tanks and hit to the streets. Smelling sweet and walking to their own beat. I love it!

I have always said that I absolutely love being a girl. No matter how much we go through emotionally as being "receivers" I love the essence o fbeing a women. I love the delicateness and the softness that is associated with my presence. I love the way my body responds to the touch of my man's hands all over me, strong and protective. I love the way I can cook up a meal and serve it to make people smile.

I love the arch in my back, the pep in my step, the sway in my hair the glimmer in my eyes. I love to bat my lashes, I love to whisper sweet nothings.

I love being a MOM to my little girl and teaching her to be a lady.

The summer helps me embrace my womaness...I get energy and rays from the sun that speak to my inner spirit and it glows outward. I love how as the flowers bloom so do we. I love everything that is SUMMER.

So all that to say...Sun...Keep beaming your rays...

Love and get lost in it...

Patience grasshopper....

So many things inspire me and my thinking that it is easy for me to lose track of what the original inspiration was...if that makes sense. I have been in the space the last month, of re-evaluating my position in life, which consists of career, relationships, and self. I have been discovering many things that are taking me to new places and opening doors that I never visited and it is quite refreshing.

My latest inspiration has been OPRAH. I truly think she is one of the most beautiful beings of our existence. Her ability to make the human connection her "priority" is beyond amazing to me. It is because of her good intention and energy behind everything that she has done, that has catapulted her success to the level it is. All that to say, she said something recently that gave me an "aha" moment.

Just to preface this so it makes sense, I recently have been struggling with the idea of what I have chosen to do with my life. As much as I enjoy my 5th graders and the times we share each day, there are days when I truly question and ask myself "what was I thinking?" I deal with some of the most troubled and disadvantaged youth there is, and that is based on my location and demographic. Many would run when they see the intellect and challenges that these children face, BUT not one day did I say "I give up" nor did I stay home just to call out or went to work but not cared and didn't give my all.

What was pulling me out the bed everyday was this unidentified force and voice that kept saying "You must go...why wouldn't you? They are there"..then I remember one of my high school teachers telling me "half the job of anything you do is showing up." Well Oprah eloquently stated on her finale show something that my spirit had been telling me but my mind wasn't able to fully comprehend.

She basically stated that her show had been her platform for so many years and that she never missed one day in 25 years because she knew that her audience was waiting. She also knew that she had to do and give the very best she could while she was in the position she was in. I heard this and the light bulb went off for me. I know for a fact that teaching is not the end all for me, and there are many things I am called to do...but at this moment and at this time this is what I am doing and I must do it well. It is through this experience that will carry me to my next chapter. I must believe and trust in the plan GOD has for me and just be present.

My biggest problem I have always had in my adult life is I want everything FAST...NOW! This all comes from a lack pf patience. It took a beautiful person to come into my life and show me a lesson about patience and I realize now that God placed that individual there mainly for that. All we really have is the moment in front of us. What will we do with it? Surely not use it to wish about what we want, who we wish we were with, where we shouldbe, how much we want to make, or ask yourself "why me?"

Use the moments you have to shine your light as bright as you can to fully prepare yourself for the blessings that God will place in your life purposely. Every trial and tribulation is truly a lesson that you must master. Paying close attention to your life and doing things purposeful will always allow you to move ahead. Trust in the power of being still and control the energy you send out to those around you. We all are each others helpers.

I am so full of gratitude and truly pleased with the position I hold each day. Not one day goes by that one of my students don't hug me, compliment me or tell me how much they love me in some way. That is an indication that I have paid attention. This phase in my life is purposeful and I am doing exactly what I am supposed to at the moment. My students really touch and warm my heart to the core when I see them and they provide just as much light to me as I do to them. They teach me and allow me to grow closer to the me I need to be.

I will be still and listen and await the mission ahead but in doing so...I will be patient. I will love authentically and spread it so that it is contagious. We are who we attract period.

Love and get lost in it...

PULSE...

So I ran across a particular quote 4 times today at different times of the day doing completely different things at different places and I had to believe the universe was speaking directly to me. So I wanted to share:

“Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of other's opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.” - Steve Jobs

So I totally get it and I totally understand. Thank you for the message.

On another note I have not written any new entries in some time and mainly because of the me allowing LIFE to distract me from expressing my thoughts in this space. I do not regret not posting any new entries because so much has happened and so many lessons have taken place in my life, but I am happy and full off of them all.

I am entering a new season that I am readily approaching. A season of revitalization, self- appreciation and authenticity with who I am and those around me.

I went to a church service recently with my family and the message the young woman said on the stage was simple, clear and spoke to my spirit. She said all we really need in life is Passion...Persistence and Purpose. I thought about that and I could not find one single thing wrong or invalid about that statement. Passion is what drives us. Persistence is what we need to achieve our successes and purpose is the reason we should get up everyday.

I have learned that it is very revealing to sit in silence. Here is when your thoughts speak the loudest and you can actually hear GOD speak. No sound....just silence. You and your thoughts. No influence from anyone or anything else ...learn to shut out the noise.

i recently lost something that I never really had and it made me realize....Do we ever really have anything? All we have is this moment. Therefore, it is important to safeguard your time and what you allow to enter your thinking.

On that note...I wish for everyone to be confident in their thinking and secure in their being. Anything and everything is your possibility....for you are the master of them and how FANCY FLY we all are!


LOVE.....

The berry is sweet....inside.

The things we choose to sit and pout our lip out about can be so revealing of the space we are in on the inside. When we are glowing and in a space of gratitude, rarely do we let people and places rise us up to show our ugly side. We just let it roll off our shoulders. When will we stop allowing things and people to affect us in ways that steal our joy and make us frown for way too long?

There is always someone else going through a hardhsip that is not so easily treated. There is always someone else whose load is too heavy for them to carry. I say as long as you have breathe, health and can make a deciasion about your next move ..then you should be smiling. You should be happy to still have another chance to do it all over. The time is now and the life you are living is yours to do as you may. Who has time to frown, have a sour puss face and hold a grudge..let it go..and as they say LET GOD! He can and will handle it all...

Keeping seeking your sweeteness...let it seep out your pours when you speak to your co-workers, family, friends....let it be contagious and let your smiles guide your path. You will get so much further.

XOXOXO!