So many things inspire me and my thinking that it is easy for me to lose track of what the original inspiration was...if that makes sense. I have been in the space the last month, of re-evaluating my position in life, which consists of career, relationships, and self. I have been discovering many things that are taking me to new places and opening doors that I never visited and it is quite refreshing.
My latest inspiration has been OPRAH. I truly think she is one of the most beautiful beings of our existence. Her ability to make the human connection her "priority" is beyond amazing to me. It is because of her good intention and energy behind everything that she has done, that has catapulted her success to the level it is. All that to say, she said something recently that gave me an "aha" moment.
Just to preface this so it makes sense, I recently have been struggling with the idea of what I have chosen to do with my life. As much as I enjoy my 5th graders and the times we share each day, there are days when I truly question and ask myself "what was I thinking?" I deal with some of the most troubled and disadvantaged youth there is, and that is based on my location and demographic. Many would run when they see the intellect and challenges that these children face, BUT not one day did I say "I give up" nor did I stay home just to call out or went to work but not cared and didn't give my all.
What was pulling me out the bed everyday was this unidentified force and voice that kept saying "You must go...why wouldn't you? They are there"..then I remember one of my high school teachers telling me "half the job of anything you do is showing up." Well Oprah eloquently stated on her finale show something that my spirit had been telling me but my mind wasn't able to fully comprehend.
She basically stated that her show had been her platform for so many years and that she never missed one day in 25 years because she knew that her audience was waiting. She also knew that she had to do and give the very best she could while she was in the position she was in. I heard this and the light bulb went off for me. I know for a fact that teaching is not the end all for me, and there are many things I am called to do...but at this moment and at this time this is what I am doing and I must do it well. It is through this experience that will carry me to my next chapter. I must believe and trust in the plan GOD has for me and just be present.
My biggest problem I have always had in my adult life is I want everything FAST...NOW! This all comes from a lack pf patience. It took a beautiful person to come into my life and show me a lesson about patience and I realize now that God placed that individual there mainly for that. All we really have is the moment in front of us. What will we do with it? Surely not use it to wish about what we want, who we wish we were with, where we shouldbe, how much we want to make, or ask yourself "why me?"
Use the moments you have to shine your light as bright as you can to fully prepare yourself for the blessings that God will place in your life purposely. Every trial and tribulation is truly a lesson that you must master. Paying close attention to your life and doing things purposeful will always allow you to move ahead. Trust in the power of being still and control the energy you send out to those around you. We all are each others helpers.
I am so full of gratitude and truly pleased with the position I hold each day. Not one day goes by that one of my students don't hug me, compliment me or tell me how much they love me in some way. That is an indication that I have paid attention. This phase in my life is purposeful and I am doing exactly what I am supposed to at the moment. My students really touch and warm my heart to the core when I see them and they provide just as much light to me as I do to them. They teach me and allow me to grow closer to the me I need to be.
I will be still and listen and await the mission ahead but in doing so...I will be patient. I will love authentically and spread it so that it is contagious. We are who we attract period.
Love and get lost in it...