Inspiration fart...A cappella .

Because....when the wind blows past my brown skin....it cools me. For a second I can almost feel the same exact sensation that is you. When things are right...they are right....time stands still. Moments go on forever. Raindrops beating....making a symphony in my heart. I love the sound. It reminds me of you. What can happen when two kindred spirits are so far apart yet seem so close? Riddle me that?

Just as two snowflakes are never alike....so are our experiences. We all carry a magic, a blueprint, a story. Do you want to read my pages? Would you like to find out the theme? Can you handle the message? I warn you I may be too much. What is life without a little risk? We all can't be so calculated in all we do. It would turn out to be boring....keep it brand new...fresh. SURPRISE...me. I don't mind a little unpredictability. I can appreciate it. Can you?

What motivates you? Can you articulate your heart's desires? I can. I can materialize anything if I put enough focus...FOCUS....ATTENTION...I've learned that if you want to do anything RIGHT the secret is the unbroken flow of attention that characterizes your peak performance. So...what does that mean? Well if you ever failed at something it's definitely because you were not giving it your UNDIVIDED attention. yup....you split it up with something else....you had your mind every place else but where it was supposed to be. Your focus had a mistress....it wasn't faithful to the mission.

Move on...press on young chocolate. You are a force to be reckoned with. Don't let them tell you nothing less. That is the magic in life...in the trials...in the tribulations...it helps you to grow....it forces you to open your eyes and wake up. It demands you to show up to the occasion and BE what you are destined to be! Be all that you can my love! Keep flying...get what you deserve and NOTHING less...you seen to many settle for less. I know it all to well. God is here next to me....we on this journey ...me and him...he and I. Let the show commence......

Live on PURPOSE!

Detour....take local. Enjoy the scenery

Love is one of those things that when you open yourself up you take a serious risk. You put it all on the line and in the end you may get screwed. The best thing to do is to just be honest and open with yourself and your feelings. If you love something and you have tried your best and it just won't give you anything in return then it is best to let it alone.

The most important love is Self love. It is the most important love that exists and you have to have that for yourself FIRST. If you continue loving something or someone that puts no deposit into your spirit and soul then you are losing and you are selling yourself short. In addition, you truly do not know your own worth.

We all are a work in progress and we all develop into our blossoming flowers in our own due time. Patience is Godly. We cannot look for things to happen for us when we want them to. We can not expect people to be the way we want them to and we can not rush the blessings that God has in store. They will come when they naturally are supposed to. Continue to trust in the ebb of the universe and the power of positive thinking. Have faith in the things and people that you truly love and allow life and time to prepare the fruit that is still ripening.

Maturity does not come with age. Some people aren't equipped to see the beauty that is in front of them. In addition, sometimes there are so many toxic influences and people in their ear who want what they have, that they can't discern what is the best thing for them.

God never puts more on us then we can bear. Sometimes the load can feel crippling but what I know for sure is you are NEVER alone. God is always in the midst and you will never fail if you keep that at the forefront. Never give up on the ones you believe in and never give up on yourself.

Live & Love on purpose!

A moment needed.

Dare to be different. Dare to go against what everyone else thinks. I once read a quote by Kanye that said "If you believed in something and nobody else believed in it, would you still believe in it?"

Sometimes you have to jump out the window and just do something you never thought you would to get a different result. The world can feel so empty and you can feel so alone during the process but go with what is in your heart and your gut. Never second guess the small voice that tells you what is the best solution for you. That voice is not you, it is GOD speaking to you. Pay attention. Don't take the little things for granted. Every thing that happens to us even the worst situations needed to happen for you to become who you are today and who you are to be in the future.

Nothing great happens without great sacrifice and struggle..if its worth anything. Cry as long and hard as you need to but let it out. Keep going and dust off your shoulders. Joy cometh in the morning. If you always look forward and not back there is no place to go but straight.

LOVE..LIVE...PURPOSEFULLY

MIRROR ME.

So many people who know me personally....know how PASSIONATE I can be about things that I love. Things that make me excited. Wheather it is food, a new scent, a program, a book etc. I can literally become a walking commercial if I am in love with it.

Rightfully so, I have been this way with the people in my life too. I have proclaimed and professed my love for my Nana time and time again, because she raised me and taught me so many valuable jewels. She instilled lessons in me by just DOING and BEING. She taught me to be a lady, to love unconditionally, to be excited about seeing those who we love and being confident. I love her and I will forever remain grateful for her existence.

Same rings true for my little girl. She is my light, my life. I am ready to mop the floor with ANYONE who tries to inflict harm, ridicule or fear in her. She is my purpose and God favored me when he brought her into my life.

There are many others who I love and speak on their importance in my world freely.

Recently it hit me that there is someone else who means a great deal to my life. Even though I have said it before and many know how passionate I have been about this person, He and I went through some pretty rough times over the past year, and GOD knew what was best for that time. He was ripening my mind and spirit for me to reach the epiphany that I have come to over the past few weeks. I am absolutely 100% sure that I am in love with the man who came into my life and helped me when no one else did.

This person was there for me during one of the most trying times and if it was not for his effort and thoughtfulness I may not have been able to sit in the seat I have today. It was his DEDICATION to "my" life, to my daughter and to my world that helped catapult me to where I am.

Nobody is perfect and he surely is not, but he has a good heart and he has always been GOOD to me and my daughter. He is a beautiful person inside and out and I am thankful for him. He is an amazing son, friend, father, lover, and DJ. He is truly everything I never knew I needed. He has proven and shown me how patient love really is. I will never second guess him or what we have.

It does not take a whole day to recognize sunshine...but for some of us it may take a season or two to fully feel the warmth of the sun radiating our insides...our hearts and our spirit. For some of us we don't know love because we had no formal training in how to love. We grew up watching situations and things that occur that were not of LOVE. We were not shown how to accept it when it was genuinely given. Our experiences can harden us and take the ripeness of the blessing away....but when you know yourself and you get to know GOD you will allow yourself to begin to feel Love and experience it on a different level.

You strip yourself of your ego, your pride and your inhibitions. You allow yourself to be free....to live.....Uninhibited! You are alive and you have purpose and you see the purpose of the ones around you. Life is for the taking and every experience, lesson and person is here to help teach you how to keep going. I am thankful for HIM.

#BLESSED & BLISSFUL

Give it all to me....WHOLE & FULL

I came across this quote recently that stated " After all this time, the sun never says to the earth...you owe me. Just think what a love like that does". I read that and felt an immediate gush of tranquility. It made me feel alive, warm, and I felt love instantly.

I am a woman who needs love and affection like I need air. I know some women who all the gushy, fairytale, love is a "non-$!!#$ factor" as they say. Give them some Louie bags, some shoes and take them around the world and they will be fine. NOT ME! I need to feel love uninhibited. I need to feel it like I am the wind beneath the one I love wings. I need to feel the spirit of cupid himself embodying my inner core when I am with the one I love.

Love is life's vitamins. We need it. We crave it. It does not have to be all intimate either. We need to feel it from the ones we choose to spend our company with. Our friends, family, co-workers. It makes the days feel lighter. It gives you a extra pep in your step. It provides the flavor in the bite!

Recently I was having dinner with some of my girls and she mentioned something to me that made me feel sooo good and appreciated. She simply shared her sincere feelings about who I was to her. I was so touched to know that this woman appreciated me and saw me for who I truly was to her. That is what it's all about.

We all want that in some capacity. To know we are truly appreciated and loved for the intention we have for those around us. Key word INTENTION. We are only humans, and sometimes signals get switched, but if the intention is right it all makes sense later and the one you love will know that.

Don't hold back on expressing your true feelings in an effort to protect your feelings or ego. At the end of the day...it may be too late. Life is short and you deserve all there is for YOU!

Be of love if you want to attract it back to you. Whatever you are putting out will naturally come back your way ALWAYS. It is the way and ebb of the universe. Trust in it. Believe that you are worthy of only the best and you shall receive just that. Love never hurts.

"Love is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs". I Corinthians 13:5 If this is happening.....then you are not experiencing love and it NEEDS to be rectified for your own sake, and for the sake of what GOD intended for you.

LOVE...LIFE....on purpose!

and it all comes down to this....

I have been in a space of total gratitude and deliverance. One day I decided to just give it all up. Give up all my worries, my insecurities, my pessimism, my addictions, my attitude, my selfishness and any other trait that was preventing me from elevating to that clear, radiant space of greatness.

I have always been a woman of many words. I can talk for hours and hours about anything. Make you believe it to. The point I had been missing all these years is I could talk a good game but did I believe it myself. I always knew what I had to do but being disciplined to actually do it, is where I fall short. I was blessed with a father who really "deposited" into my existence. He would talk and talk to me for hours about how important it was for me to be somebody and not follow the crowd, and even though my father is far from perfect he never was lazy on being a parent to me. That I am grateful for and it is because of that effort that I am who I am...in addition to the assistance of my entire family as a whole.

As I have matured into a woman I have made some great decisions and great life moves, and then I have stumbled on a few. During those stumbles I realize now that it came from me rushing and not taking my time where I should have been. So many of us want everything fast..right now. Hey, we live in a world with everything at our fingertips. I never wanted to wait and work my way up...just place me at the top with my cushion and bring me a cup of tea.

Well at 29 going on 30 I see that is not the way life works. I saw a quote recently that hit me like a ton of bricks: "You wanna see God laugh, tell him YOUR plans". That resonated with me so much that it made me realize that ...hey...Do I ever really plan or do I just think on impulse and move? Many of my years was based on impulsive moves. The funny thing is many of them produced great results but I definitely tripped and fell on a few.

The good news is I am here today and standing tall. I am so blessed and in tuned with my higher self that I can say this and be proud and truly grateful of the pitfalls. Without them I would not be who I am. Had I not had a taste of what I did not want, I would not know how the dish should actually taste. If that makes sense.

Two things I know for sure that has helped me reach this point and I am sure someone else may reap the benefits of this message:

1: Be absolutely present to your RIGHT NOW. That is really all we have and if you are 100% in tuned with what is happening around you..you wont worry about tomorrow..or what you don't have, where you wish you were, who you wish you were with. You would be absorbing and giving all your pure energy to what is happening now that may produce the future you want. You have to force yourself to be present to your moments.

2: Every thing, person and event, try to take yourself out of it. Try to think of the next person in all you do and you will see how much "you" actually benefit from being of service to someone else. I learned this the most being a teacher. I teach in one of the most poverty stricken areas in Brooklyn. My kids come to me everyday happy to see me. For some of them I am their only source of hope, excitement, and something to look forward to. I used to get so upset with the "way" things were until I realize, this is not about me....but these kids. Once I took myself out of the equation and realized that I am just here giving myself the best way I can and it has nothing to do with what I would like, where I wish I was etc. I am here and they are the source. I found a new found appreciation for the blessing of just being "Selfless". Giving of your self without looking for anything in return. Being considerate. Being loving. Caring. Generous. and Patient ...just because. That is being HUMAN. That is what GOD intended for each one of us.

Of course this state of thinking and level of understanding takes time, and usually a string of hardships and experiences to humble you to the place where you can actually ask God to "use me the way you can to allow me to be a source of light and the best way you see fit. I am open to receiving your will and message". Once you open up your heart and your aurora to receive that energy it will come to you and you will start to see clear and focused.

There is many things that I am still longing for in my life and I am 100% sure that they will manifest when the time is ready but for now...I am living each day consciously, purposefully and with the bigger picture getting sharper. During this time, many people will fall through the cracks because I have to be responsible for the energy and company I allow in my life. The truth is everybody is not for you, even if they say they are. The wrong type of person, or energy can delay your goals heavily, and who can afford such a thing.

I, for one, have worked too hard and sacrificed too much to allow any more careless mistakes, negative people and ill intentions to be a part of my life.

I am on a one way trip to Joy. I feel it and it is settling in very nicely.

#Abundaceoverflowing

Switch signals...

What do you do when every effort you make towards something produces no results? Do you give up? I think it depends on your passion for the results you would like. The passion is what thrives us in all that we do. I am a firm believer that if you put your very best foot forward in all that you do then the universe will repay you for your hard work and effort. You may not get what you ultimately want at that very time but it usually comes in due time and it may be more than what you originally bargained for.

Sometimes we find ourselves fighting a loosing battle against the things that we love and are passionate about the most. Sometimes the battle is not or wasn't ours to fight to begin with. You have to just let time take it course and allow the forces that work to do just that... work.

Many times when it comes to the people in our lives..they are so use to their own "flaws" that they don't even realize when they are inflicting pain and hurt on the ones who love them the most. We all are a work in progress and we are all looking for the ultimate healing....to be happy...peaceful and loved. We live thinking that we are always doing our very best but we have to realize what is "best" is only limited to our experience and knowledge. What may be best for you may not be best for your neighbor.

Respecting that everyone has feelings, differences, and comes from a different place in life helps when it comes to the way we communicate with one another. Love is a universal language. If you do things from a loving space, I have found that the signals never get switched. It is only when we speak from a position of hate, envy, bitterness, disappointment, and grief that we are not able to reach each other thoroughly.

Positive flow and energy kills everything...no matter what is happening just don't let it take you over and stay positive. Keep on your path and what is meant for you will be. Sometimes....you are greater than the mediocrity around you and GOD places people and environments in your world that are more suitable to you and the language you speak. I do not believe anything is by accident. Things most definitely happen for a reason always, so pay close attention to it all and start to decide the way you will react to make the results you ultimately NEED occur.

LOVE....LIFE...PURPOSEFULLY

I say it's so.....therefore it IS.....

What a great feeling it is to know you are loved. I have the gift of walking into a building everyday to work and when I enter I literally feel the love popping off of the little bodies that I am teaching. The love is so strong for me from these small children that I am not even the teacher to some of them and I have children expressing how much they love and adore me? I ask myself "What did I do to deserve all of this?"

I am in a very delicate space in life at the moment trying to piece the puzzle together in a way that makes sense. I know what I want and I am steadily making my way to that destination and nothing will stop it. How do I know I will make it there, because God lives within me and he will lead me to where it is I need to be. The people and circumstances that have been a part of my life for the past few years have been a magnificent journey and a blessing. It has placed me in a place of self-reflection and has given me so much insight into how amazing this life of mine is.

The most important lesson I have learned is to not give up on anything or anyone just because you believe in it more than it or them. If you believe strongly enough in anything, that alone is enough to carry out whatever vision you have. You have to have the confidence and drive to make the things you want come to fruition and that does not happen by second guessing yourself. Outside forces will rip you and your dreams apart if you allow them to have space in your world. Learn to keep a positive circle around you always. To love and encourage who you are and where you would like to go.

Stay focused, stay true and stay real to what really matters to you regardless of what it appears to be or what is said. Your heart and instincts are always factual and you will know they are working when you pay attention and act on them.

What a beautiful day of revelation and affirmation....get a piece of it.

LOVE....

You owe yourself....

So much can happen over the course of a season. Life can change dramatically without notice and it is not always what we expected. It can leave us asking questions like how? why? and what does this mean?

Surprisingly, the biggest culprit usually in the equation is you! It is so easy to say that you know you are the master of your ship and you can control "you"..but so many of us cannot. It is hard to really control and get a grip on our emotions at times. They lead you stir crazy, unhappy....and literally creates situations in your mind that don't even exist. Everything external to you should not matter when it comes to the effort you put into making every day amazing and fruitful. Whatever that is within your control and reach, you make sure to keep positive and peaceful. If it is outside of you, then have no expectations in the results.

We like to blame everything and everybody for when we are unhappy, upset and disappointed but really it is us who we should look to. One thing I have learned is God is faithful and nothing in front of us is bigger than we can get through or handle. I am a testament to the beautiful blessings of him and I will continue to have faith in all that he does.

How amazing life works and how beautiful it is when we just be still and not think too much about what is supposed to come next. Don't think I am saying you should not plan for your future because you should..but keyword YOU plan for YOU. Never look to your neighbor for what you should be doing, where you should be going, or what is important. Only you hold the answers to your life and what it is to be. Remain open to all the love that comes your way and treat it brand new.

Everyone in our lives who loves us and guide us and builds with us are truly blessings. God uses them to assist in his work. Love your peeps! Be honest with them and stay working on the seeds that will grow to bear you the sweetest fruits. Everyday we are here it is a blessing to be acknowledged and celebrated. Who has time to be mad, angry and bitter. You are here! Make your mark and live with purpose. You owe it to yourself! Life happens, stay positive and keep going with the natural ebb of the universe.

Love....

Jumping out the window with this one.....

So last night was amazing! I saw the only artist (BEYONCE) I am a FAN for perform and it was breathtaking. This is my 3rd time seeing her and every time it is just a experience beyond words. I have so much respect for this woman beyond her ability to just drop it and carry a tune. Her work ethic is incredible and that's obvious when you watch her in action. It takes a woman of a certain character, strength, and determination to be able to deliver the way she does, and you can't do that overnight.

This is not a Beyonce post. This is a post to say that I was truly inspired but some of the things she said during her show. She took her audience down a memory lane of all her trials and tribulations. She explained how she was rejected and rejected again so many times before she actually got her big break. She went on to explain the significance behind her now album entitled "4" and how much the number 4 means to her and her family.

One thing that I appreciated throughout each of her stories was the consistency of "bravery" that came up. In addition to her putting her pride to the side when it came down to things that really mattered in her life.

We allow our pride to get the best of us in many areas in our lives. When people try to advise us, and tell us what they think, we roll it off our backs and will fight to the end just to save our pride. Then there are the times when we may have strong feelings about someone or something but we will minimize them to save our pride. Or, we don't know the answerer's sometimes and we then are afraid to ask because we feel that our pride might be damaged. The underlying and more bigger issue is really not pride BUT "fear".

Fear will keep you dead while you are alive. It breeds and multiplies fast and it is when we can conquer our fears we have already won half the battle. I am someone who has always had so much pride. Love has taught me that you have to check that at the door sometimes. To be in love you have to give all of yourself...not just a little bit. You have to expose your vulnerabilities and be able to accept that you do not have it all figured out. When you are truly in love you give it all you have. When I speak of being in love do not just limit that to relationships. It is everything life has to offer. That is why they say always do what you love because only then will you express your full potential.

I feel blessed so many times over that God has allowed the closest people in my life to serve as mirrors to behavior that I once demonstrated that just wasn't of my higher self. That is love, and when things hit the fan you are able to sit reflect and check your pride at the door.

To sum it up...all I say is jump out the window for things you truly believe in. NO MATTER WHAT THEY SAY!

God knows best and you know best for you. No one will ever know who is right for you, what you should do, where you should live, why you should work there and not some place else and the list can go on. You have to be in tuned with God and in tuned with your spirit and once you are you can listen to it! He always makes a way. Stay positive and believe that you can have anything your heart truly desires if you are willing to put aside your pride and do what it takes.

Life is short and so is time and who has time to sit and worry about things that do not matter. Make your today great and know that only your future is what you make it to be. So if it turns out unexpected look to yourself as to why.

LIVE and be purposeful... LOVE and be Honest...Be in your moment.

CREATE

We are the sum of the choices we have made before TODAY.

I sit and listen to the rain pound the windows and I can almost relate to the drop hanging off the seal. I had to let my daughter go and spend time with her father today and she is going to another state for a week. This may not sound like a big deal but it is to me. I have always been protective, and over bearing I will admit when to comes to my "moomoo", but these days things have seem to intensify.

Six years ago when I decided to have her, it was done without planning...it was me being young, thinking of just the minutes that held me at the time...not the tomorrows. We all fall victim to what feels good at the moment...but there is always something that is greater working and trying to clue you in to what the reality is. Well...I did not listen to that clue nor did I see it. I went with it...and she came.. and God knows she has been a beautiful blessing in my life and my being, but as they say everything has balance and something as beautiful as she comes with a price.

The price in this case is ..her father and I have not mutually agreed to come together to make a family unit for her with each other. We never truly saw things eye to eye and for some reason maybe we thought a child would help...but it doesn't. So God says here ...take this....the most precious gift you can have and now what? Well...nothing changes...people don't. Life happens....and now you have a life beside your own to cater, nurture, and make sure it is going down the right path.

If I learned anything from that past experience it is....when it comes to relationships...it takes TWO...and both have to be on the same page and agree to get to the same goal no matter how each chooses to get there...as long as both are striving. I am not saying he was lacking or I wasn't. Who is to blame becomes a lost cause ..a lost thought....and a place of irrelevancy. WE were the cause.

When the spilt happened I was fine. I never been more sure about anything in my life. The days, weeks and months after were fine until you deal with the present. My daughter has to leave me for a week because she has to spend time with her daddy right? Well..I sometimes have to get a grip. I just always wanted to have that strong family unit as I grew up in, that I benefited from. I must say fortunately my daughter is blessed to have a big family on both sides and she gets immense love from everyone...but it breaks me down to know that her time must be split. There are moments, experience that she will share and I will have nothing to do with it. As a mother you want to share EVERY moment that matters, that builds and teaches her something but based on the choices I have made...they will affect us both.

So ....instead of sulk, I rise. I give thanks for every single thread of wisdom that God has placed on my heart. Every single person who loves me and appreciates me and every situation that is happening to teach and prepare me for the joy to come. Life is good. She is healthy, she has people who really care for and love her in ways that are unexplainable. I am learning to cope and to accustom myself to the lifestyle that has been created.

I will always do my best to be her hero, protect her and love her unconditionally and provide the best possible means for her future. I take solace in knowing that GOD is in the mix always and this was meant for us...for now. Tomorrow looks bright and the future is ours for the taking.

This post was a therapy release....I do feel better even though I miss her much! DAY 1.

Affirm your results....

Affirmation. How often do you proclaim what you want and believe in it? I have found that this can have great effects on a persons life and existence. There is so much negativity surrounding us when we walk out our doors that it amazes me how some of us are able to think straight. There are always distractions, evil intentions, toxic people and situations ready to feed off of our clean pure hearts, but sometimes we as humans get caught up in these exact things and it pushes us back a few steps.

So many times happiness comes and wraps its arms around us and we feel like we are floating through life. We just want that moment to last forever, and then like a rapture in the night something starts to slowly take your happiness away. What your happiness is can be very specific to the person, but you know when you are in bliss. It can be a new job, a new mate, a new apartment, a moment of self-reflection, time with a loved one, the birth of a new baby, the list can go on. These can be some of the most joyous occasions in our life and we want them to last forever. Unfortunately, due to the balance of the world, there will always be something lurking to steal your joy. If it wasn't it would not be life. Our focus should not be on the fact that something will always try to steal your joy but on how we can prepare and react to it, so we deal with it in the most positive way.

I believe it is imperative to have some spiritual guard and a connection with GOD. You need it to keep you anchored in your positive space and to keep your happiness. Affirmation is a powerful tool because the things that we truly want the most can exist in our lives and in our world. Sometimes we loose faith in ourselves and our own power gets diminished because we allowed it to. We must simply constantly affirm the things we want and what we need. It takes discipline and will to continue coaching and encouraging ourelsves. It is so easy to always look for someone else to lift us up but it is when we can always depend on ourselves to lift us up we have tapped into that power and we need to sustain it.

On this day I know who I am...I know what I want, I know where I am going and I am fully ready to embrace all the things that come with that. I know Love and I proclaim it. I know peace and I proclaim it. I know God. What are your affirmations? Keep them positive.

The heat is on...

There is something about the warm temperatures that makes the little diva in me start to surge. I know this is true for many of my ladies...because I start to see you put on your skirts, dresses, high heels, fitted tanks and hit to the streets. Smelling sweet and walking to their own beat. I love it!

I have always said that I absolutely love being a girl. No matter how much we go through emotionally as being "receivers" I love the essence o fbeing a women. I love the delicateness and the softness that is associated with my presence. I love the way my body responds to the touch of my man's hands all over me, strong and protective. I love the way I can cook up a meal and serve it to make people smile.

I love the arch in my back, the pep in my step, the sway in my hair the glimmer in my eyes. I love to bat my lashes, I love to whisper sweet nothings.

I love being a MOM to my little girl and teaching her to be a lady.

The summer helps me embrace my womaness...I get energy and rays from the sun that speak to my inner spirit and it glows outward. I love how as the flowers bloom so do we. I love everything that is SUMMER.

So all that to say...Sun...Keep beaming your rays...

Love and get lost in it...

Patience grasshopper....

So many things inspire me and my thinking that it is easy for me to lose track of what the original inspiration was...if that makes sense. I have been in the space the last month, of re-evaluating my position in life, which consists of career, relationships, and self. I have been discovering many things that are taking me to new places and opening doors that I never visited and it is quite refreshing.

My latest inspiration has been OPRAH. I truly think she is one of the most beautiful beings of our existence. Her ability to make the human connection her "priority" is beyond amazing to me. It is because of her good intention and energy behind everything that she has done, that has catapulted her success to the level it is. All that to say, she said something recently that gave me an "aha" moment.

Just to preface this so it makes sense, I recently have been struggling with the idea of what I have chosen to do with my life. As much as I enjoy my 5th graders and the times we share each day, there are days when I truly question and ask myself "what was I thinking?" I deal with some of the most troubled and disadvantaged youth there is, and that is based on my location and demographic. Many would run when they see the intellect and challenges that these children face, BUT not one day did I say "I give up" nor did I stay home just to call out or went to work but not cared and didn't give my all.

What was pulling me out the bed everyday was this unidentified force and voice that kept saying "You must go...why wouldn't you? They are there"..then I remember one of my high school teachers telling me "half the job of anything you do is showing up." Well Oprah eloquently stated on her finale show something that my spirit had been telling me but my mind wasn't able to fully comprehend.

She basically stated that her show had been her platform for so many years and that she never missed one day in 25 years because she knew that her audience was waiting. She also knew that she had to do and give the very best she could while she was in the position she was in. I heard this and the light bulb went off for me. I know for a fact that teaching is not the end all for me, and there are many things I am called to do...but at this moment and at this time this is what I am doing and I must do it well. It is through this experience that will carry me to my next chapter. I must believe and trust in the plan GOD has for me and just be present.

My biggest problem I have always had in my adult life is I want everything FAST...NOW! This all comes from a lack pf patience. It took a beautiful person to come into my life and show me a lesson about patience and I realize now that God placed that individual there mainly for that. All we really have is the moment in front of us. What will we do with it? Surely not use it to wish about what we want, who we wish we were with, where we shouldbe, how much we want to make, or ask yourself "why me?"

Use the moments you have to shine your light as bright as you can to fully prepare yourself for the blessings that God will place in your life purposely. Every trial and tribulation is truly a lesson that you must master. Paying close attention to your life and doing things purposeful will always allow you to move ahead. Trust in the power of being still and control the energy you send out to those around you. We all are each others helpers.

I am so full of gratitude and truly pleased with the position I hold each day. Not one day goes by that one of my students don't hug me, compliment me or tell me how much they love me in some way. That is an indication that I have paid attention. This phase in my life is purposeful and I am doing exactly what I am supposed to at the moment. My students really touch and warm my heart to the core when I see them and they provide just as much light to me as I do to them. They teach me and allow me to grow closer to the me I need to be.

I will be still and listen and await the mission ahead but in doing so...I will be patient. I will love authentically and spread it so that it is contagious. We are who we attract period.

Love and get lost in it...

PULSE...

So I ran across a particular quote 4 times today at different times of the day doing completely different things at different places and I had to believe the universe was speaking directly to me. So I wanted to share:

“Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of other's opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.” - Steve Jobs

So I totally get it and I totally understand. Thank you for the message.

On another note I have not written any new entries in some time and mainly because of the me allowing LIFE to distract me from expressing my thoughts in this space. I do not regret not posting any new entries because so much has happened and so many lessons have taken place in my life, but I am happy and full off of them all.

I am entering a new season that I am readily approaching. A season of revitalization, self- appreciation and authenticity with who I am and those around me.

I went to a church service recently with my family and the message the young woman said on the stage was simple, clear and spoke to my spirit. She said all we really need in life is Passion...Persistence and Purpose. I thought about that and I could not find one single thing wrong or invalid about that statement. Passion is what drives us. Persistence is what we need to achieve our successes and purpose is the reason we should get up everyday.

I have learned that it is very revealing to sit in silence. Here is when your thoughts speak the loudest and you can actually hear GOD speak. No sound....just silence. You and your thoughts. No influence from anyone or anything else ...learn to shut out the noise.

i recently lost something that I never really had and it made me realize....Do we ever really have anything? All we have is this moment. Therefore, it is important to safeguard your time and what you allow to enter your thinking.

On that note...I wish for everyone to be confident in their thinking and secure in their being. Anything and everything is your possibility....for you are the master of them and how FANCY FLY we all are!


LOVE.....