Gift of GAB

Sometimes I am truly in awe by the people that come into my life and how it happens. It is a magical process. A process that assures me that GOD is always in the midst and his vision is crystal clear. I have to trust in that, never second guessing that the encounters that I experience no matter how big or small are truly for me. I love it! I breathe it. I give life to the newness.

Some folks literally have the gift of lifting me off my feet and inspiring the holy crap out of me! That is nothing but the power of GOD and my good energy attracting it to me. I recently was inspired by this young cat who does poetry. Usually when you are a PYT it is hard to meet a man and it just be that. A man will try to kick his game, lick his lips, and sell you a dream about why you and him need to be the next Michelle and Barack. (right)....

Well it just wasn't that vibe. Dude was really inspiring. He is a poet and the words and the messages that he could formulate in his brain and transfer to paper was amazing. I, of course was truly touched by this in more ways than one because I am a writer FIRST. I love the way words transcend beyond the moment. It captivates me...it lifts me and for one moment I can see your mind not the flesh in front of me. I can feel your spirit and I sniff out your soul.

Words can touch us in ways that are indescribable. I was once told that I would be "unstoppable" if I always practiced what I wrote. Why?, because when I write I am of another dimension. I am truly one with my passion. I am love abundant. I am at peace. I am me....perfect in my imperfections.

One thing I do know is I am flawed. We all are, but how beautiful it is to be in acknowledgment of that and be conscious in your progress to correct it.

GOD bless that man that I speak of, who so eloquently writes his poetry. Planting his seeds of wisdom and fruit for us to savor. He does not know how much I enjoyed his piece of writing and the funny thing is....who is to say I will express how much it meant to my being when I read it. This post was my "pay it forward." What a beauty it is to be on the receiving end of creative energy. Arts...humanity. I have been blessed!

LIVE ON PURPOSE.

Have your OWN back. "Get your life".

Being one. Being whole. Being complete, just with who you are is an important part of growth, development and the ability to be able to embrace the future you want and desire. Sometimes we think too much about other people and what they want. We put ourselves and what makes us happy second and in the end we wonder why we are still miserable, upset and not happy.

My Nana used to say "You came in this world alone....and you will eventually go out alone." You are with you all the time, every second of the day, yet sometimes we treat ourselves like a second class citizen. Some would argue that it is a selfish state of mind to think of yourself and your needs before someone else, but I beg to differ. At the end of it all, if you cannot make you happy and please you, then who will?

Learn to be honest with yourself and accept the realities that are in your life. Today you may not have all that you want but learn to be grateful for what you do have and know that all you need is what you have in front of you today.

We put so much focus and worry on our tomorrow's when they are not yet in existence. We have to learn to be present in our moments and give all we have to the realities that exist. If you want a better job or position, do the BEST damn job you can do with the one you currently have and make an effort to get another one each day. If you want more from your spouse or mate, learn to validate them and love them fully and give them your all today so that you are leading by example of how you would like your love to feel. If you want to make more money then do everything possible right now to secure the future you want.

Every decision, every thought, every action we make right NOW is determining the future we will have. Choose your thoughts, company,and actions wisely and constantly ask yourself...Is it aligned with my purpose and the future I would like? If the answer is ever "No"....then don't do it...no matter WHO does not like it. You come first. When you are happy, when you can love and when you are at one...that is the only time you can effectively give of yourself to someone else.

Love ...Live...Purposeful.

Inspiration fart...A cappella .

Because....when the wind blows past my brown skin....it cools me. For a second I can almost feel the same exact sensation that is you. When things are right...they are right....time stands still. Moments go on forever. Raindrops beating....making a symphony in my heart. I love the sound. It reminds me of you. What can happen when two kindred spirits are so far apart yet seem so close? Riddle me that?

Just as two snowflakes are never alike....so are our experiences. We all carry a magic, a blueprint, a story. Do you want to read my pages? Would you like to find out the theme? Can you handle the message? I warn you I may be too much. What is life without a little risk? We all can't be so calculated in all we do. It would turn out to be boring....keep it brand new...fresh. SURPRISE...me. I don't mind a little unpredictability. I can appreciate it. Can you?

What motivates you? Can you articulate your heart's desires? I can. I can materialize anything if I put enough focus...FOCUS....ATTENTION...I've learned that if you want to do anything RIGHT the secret is the unbroken flow of attention that characterizes your peak performance. So...what does that mean? Well if you ever failed at something it's definitely because you were not giving it your UNDIVIDED attention. yup....you split it up with something else....you had your mind every place else but where it was supposed to be. Your focus had a mistress....it wasn't faithful to the mission.

Move on...press on young chocolate. You are a force to be reckoned with. Don't let them tell you nothing less. That is the magic in life...in the trials...in the tribulations...it helps you to grow....it forces you to open your eyes and wake up. It demands you to show up to the occasion and BE what you are destined to be! Be all that you can my love! Keep flying...get what you deserve and NOTHING less...you seen to many settle for less. I know it all to well. God is here next to me....we on this journey ...me and him...he and I. Let the show commence......

Live on PURPOSE!

Detour....take local. Enjoy the scenery

Love is one of those things that when you open yourself up you take a serious risk. You put it all on the line and in the end you may get screwed. The best thing to do is to just be honest and open with yourself and your feelings. If you love something and you have tried your best and it just won't give you anything in return then it is best to let it alone.

The most important love is Self love. It is the most important love that exists and you have to have that for yourself FIRST. If you continue loving something or someone that puts no deposit into your spirit and soul then you are losing and you are selling yourself short. In addition, you truly do not know your own worth.

We all are a work in progress and we all develop into our blossoming flowers in our own due time. Patience is Godly. We cannot look for things to happen for us when we want them to. We can not expect people to be the way we want them to and we can not rush the blessings that God has in store. They will come when they naturally are supposed to. Continue to trust in the ebb of the universe and the power of positive thinking. Have faith in the things and people that you truly love and allow life and time to prepare the fruit that is still ripening.

Maturity does not come with age. Some people aren't equipped to see the beauty that is in front of them. In addition, sometimes there are so many toxic influences and people in their ear who want what they have, that they can't discern what is the best thing for them.

God never puts more on us then we can bear. Sometimes the load can feel crippling but what I know for sure is you are NEVER alone. God is always in the midst and you will never fail if you keep that at the forefront. Never give up on the ones you believe in and never give up on yourself.

Live & Love on purpose!

MIRROR ME.

So many people who know me personally....know how PASSIONATE I can be about things that I love. Things that make me excited. Wheather it is food, a new scent, a program, a book etc. I can literally become a walking commercial if I am in love with it.

Rightfully so, I have been this way with the people in my life too. I have proclaimed and professed my love for my Nana time and time again, because she raised me and taught me so many valuable jewels. She instilled lessons in me by just DOING and BEING. She taught me to be a lady, to love unconditionally, to be excited about seeing those who we love and being confident. I love her and I will forever remain grateful for her existence.

Same rings true for my little girl. She is my light, my life. I am ready to mop the floor with ANYONE who tries to inflict harm, ridicule or fear in her. She is my purpose and God favored me when he brought her into my life.

There are many others who I love and speak on their importance in my world freely.

Recently it hit me that there is someone else who means a great deal to my life. Even though I have said it before and many know how passionate I have been about this person, He and I went through some pretty rough times over the past year, and GOD knew what was best for that time. He was ripening my mind and spirit for me to reach the epiphany that I have come to over the past few weeks. I am absolutely 100% sure that I am in love with the man who came into my life and helped me when no one else did.

This person was there for me during one of the most trying times and if it was not for his effort and thoughtfulness I may not have been able to sit in the seat I have today. It was his DEDICATION to "my" life, to my daughter and to my world that helped catapult me to where I am.

Nobody is perfect and he surely is not, but he has a good heart and he has always been GOOD to me and my daughter. He is a beautiful person inside and out and I am thankful for him. He is an amazing son, friend, father, lover, and DJ. He is truly everything I never knew I needed. He has proven and shown me how patient love really is. I will never second guess him or what we have.

It does not take a whole day to recognize sunshine...but for some of us it may take a season or two to fully feel the warmth of the sun radiating our insides...our hearts and our spirit. For some of us we don't know love because we had no formal training in how to love. We grew up watching situations and things that occur that were not of LOVE. We were not shown how to accept it when it was genuinely given. Our experiences can harden us and take the ripeness of the blessing away....but when you know yourself and you get to know GOD you will allow yourself to begin to feel Love and experience it on a different level.

You strip yourself of your ego, your pride and your inhibitions. You allow yourself to be free....to live.....Uninhibited! You are alive and you have purpose and you see the purpose of the ones around you. Life is for the taking and every experience, lesson and person is here to help teach you how to keep going. I am thankful for HIM.

#BLESSED & BLISSFUL

Give it all to me....WHOLE & FULL

I came across this quote recently that stated " After all this time, the sun never says to the earth...you owe me. Just think what a love like that does". I read that and felt an immediate gush of tranquility. It made me feel alive, warm, and I felt love instantly.

I am a woman who needs love and affection like I need air. I know some women who all the gushy, fairytale, love is a "non-$!!#$ factor" as they say. Give them some Louie bags, some shoes and take them around the world and they will be fine. NOT ME! I need to feel love uninhibited. I need to feel it like I am the wind beneath the one I love wings. I need to feel the spirit of cupid himself embodying my inner core when I am with the one I love.

Love is life's vitamins. We need it. We crave it. It does not have to be all intimate either. We need to feel it from the ones we choose to spend our company with. Our friends, family, co-workers. It makes the days feel lighter. It gives you a extra pep in your step. It provides the flavor in the bite!

Recently I was having dinner with some of my girls and she mentioned something to me that made me feel sooo good and appreciated. She simply shared her sincere feelings about who I was to her. I was so touched to know that this woman appreciated me and saw me for who I truly was to her. That is what it's all about.

We all want that in some capacity. To know we are truly appreciated and loved for the intention we have for those around us. Key word INTENTION. We are only humans, and sometimes signals get switched, but if the intention is right it all makes sense later and the one you love will know that.

Don't hold back on expressing your true feelings in an effort to protect your feelings or ego. At the end of the day...it may be too late. Life is short and you deserve all there is for YOU!

Be of love if you want to attract it back to you. Whatever you are putting out will naturally come back your way ALWAYS. It is the way and ebb of the universe. Trust in it. Believe that you are worthy of only the best and you shall receive just that. Love never hurts.

"Love is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs". I Corinthians 13:5 If this is happening.....then you are not experiencing love and it NEEDS to be rectified for your own sake, and for the sake of what GOD intended for you.

LOVE...LIFE....on purpose!

I say it's so.....therefore it IS.....

What a great feeling it is to know you are loved. I have the gift of walking into a building everyday to work and when I enter I literally feel the love popping off of the little bodies that I am teaching. The love is so strong for me from these small children that I am not even the teacher to some of them and I have children expressing how much they love and adore me? I ask myself "What did I do to deserve all of this?"

I am in a very delicate space in life at the moment trying to piece the puzzle together in a way that makes sense. I know what I want and I am steadily making my way to that destination and nothing will stop it. How do I know I will make it there, because God lives within me and he will lead me to where it is I need to be. The people and circumstances that have been a part of my life for the past few years have been a magnificent journey and a blessing. It has placed me in a place of self-reflection and has given me so much insight into how amazing this life of mine is.

The most important lesson I have learned is to not give up on anything or anyone just because you believe in it more than it or them. If you believe strongly enough in anything, that alone is enough to carry out whatever vision you have. You have to have the confidence and drive to make the things you want come to fruition and that does not happen by second guessing yourself. Outside forces will rip you and your dreams apart if you allow them to have space in your world. Learn to keep a positive circle around you always. To love and encourage who you are and where you would like to go.

Stay focused, stay true and stay real to what really matters to you regardless of what it appears to be or what is said. Your heart and instincts are always factual and you will know they are working when you pay attention and act on them.

What a beautiful day of revelation and affirmation....get a piece of it.

LOVE....

Jumping out the window with this one.....

So last night was amazing! I saw the only artist (BEYONCE) I am a FAN for perform and it was breathtaking. This is my 3rd time seeing her and every time it is just a experience beyond words. I have so much respect for this woman beyond her ability to just drop it and carry a tune. Her work ethic is incredible and that's obvious when you watch her in action. It takes a woman of a certain character, strength, and determination to be able to deliver the way she does, and you can't do that overnight.

This is not a Beyonce post. This is a post to say that I was truly inspired but some of the things she said during her show. She took her audience down a memory lane of all her trials and tribulations. She explained how she was rejected and rejected again so many times before she actually got her big break. She went on to explain the significance behind her now album entitled "4" and how much the number 4 means to her and her family.

One thing that I appreciated throughout each of her stories was the consistency of "bravery" that came up. In addition to her putting her pride to the side when it came down to things that really mattered in her life.

We allow our pride to get the best of us in many areas in our lives. When people try to advise us, and tell us what they think, we roll it off our backs and will fight to the end just to save our pride. Then there are the times when we may have strong feelings about someone or something but we will minimize them to save our pride. Or, we don't know the answerer's sometimes and we then are afraid to ask because we feel that our pride might be damaged. The underlying and more bigger issue is really not pride BUT "fear".

Fear will keep you dead while you are alive. It breeds and multiplies fast and it is when we can conquer our fears we have already won half the battle. I am someone who has always had so much pride. Love has taught me that you have to check that at the door sometimes. To be in love you have to give all of yourself...not just a little bit. You have to expose your vulnerabilities and be able to accept that you do not have it all figured out. When you are truly in love you give it all you have. When I speak of being in love do not just limit that to relationships. It is everything life has to offer. That is why they say always do what you love because only then will you express your full potential.

I feel blessed so many times over that God has allowed the closest people in my life to serve as mirrors to behavior that I once demonstrated that just wasn't of my higher self. That is love, and when things hit the fan you are able to sit reflect and check your pride at the door.

To sum it up...all I say is jump out the window for things you truly believe in. NO MATTER WHAT THEY SAY!

God knows best and you know best for you. No one will ever know who is right for you, what you should do, where you should live, why you should work there and not some place else and the list can go on. You have to be in tuned with God and in tuned with your spirit and once you are you can listen to it! He always makes a way. Stay positive and believe that you can have anything your heart truly desires if you are willing to put aside your pride and do what it takes.

Life is short and so is time and who has time to sit and worry about things that do not matter. Make your today great and know that only your future is what you make it to be. So if it turns out unexpected look to yourself as to why.

LIVE and be purposeful... LOVE and be Honest...Be in your moment.

CREATE

We are the sum of the choices we have made before TODAY.

I sit and listen to the rain pound the windows and I can almost relate to the drop hanging off the seal. I had to let my daughter go and spend time with her father today and she is going to another state for a week. This may not sound like a big deal but it is to me. I have always been protective, and over bearing I will admit when to comes to my "moomoo", but these days things have seem to intensify.

Six years ago when I decided to have her, it was done without planning...it was me being young, thinking of just the minutes that held me at the time...not the tomorrows. We all fall victim to what feels good at the moment...but there is always something that is greater working and trying to clue you in to what the reality is. Well...I did not listen to that clue nor did I see it. I went with it...and she came.. and God knows she has been a beautiful blessing in my life and my being, but as they say everything has balance and something as beautiful as she comes with a price.

The price in this case is ..her father and I have not mutually agreed to come together to make a family unit for her with each other. We never truly saw things eye to eye and for some reason maybe we thought a child would help...but it doesn't. So God says here ...take this....the most precious gift you can have and now what? Well...nothing changes...people don't. Life happens....and now you have a life beside your own to cater, nurture, and make sure it is going down the right path.

If I learned anything from that past experience it is....when it comes to relationships...it takes TWO...and both have to be on the same page and agree to get to the same goal no matter how each chooses to get there...as long as both are striving. I am not saying he was lacking or I wasn't. Who is to blame becomes a lost cause ..a lost thought....and a place of irrelevancy. WE were the cause.

When the spilt happened I was fine. I never been more sure about anything in my life. The days, weeks and months after were fine until you deal with the present. My daughter has to leave me for a week because she has to spend time with her daddy right? Well..I sometimes have to get a grip. I just always wanted to have that strong family unit as I grew up in, that I benefited from. I must say fortunately my daughter is blessed to have a big family on both sides and she gets immense love from everyone...but it breaks me down to know that her time must be split. There are moments, experience that she will share and I will have nothing to do with it. As a mother you want to share EVERY moment that matters, that builds and teaches her something but based on the choices I have made...they will affect us both.

So ....instead of sulk, I rise. I give thanks for every single thread of wisdom that God has placed on my heart. Every single person who loves me and appreciates me and every situation that is happening to teach and prepare me for the joy to come. Life is good. She is healthy, she has people who really care for and love her in ways that are unexplainable. I am learning to cope and to accustom myself to the lifestyle that has been created.

I will always do my best to be her hero, protect her and love her unconditionally and provide the best possible means for her future. I take solace in knowing that GOD is in the mix always and this was meant for us...for now. Tomorrow looks bright and the future is ours for the taking.

This post was a therapy release....I do feel better even though I miss her much! DAY 1.

The heat is on...

There is something about the warm temperatures that makes the little diva in me start to surge. I know this is true for many of my ladies...because I start to see you put on your skirts, dresses, high heels, fitted tanks and hit to the streets. Smelling sweet and walking to their own beat. I love it!

I have always said that I absolutely love being a girl. No matter how much we go through emotionally as being "receivers" I love the essence o fbeing a women. I love the delicateness and the softness that is associated with my presence. I love the way my body responds to the touch of my man's hands all over me, strong and protective. I love the way I can cook up a meal and serve it to make people smile.

I love the arch in my back, the pep in my step, the sway in my hair the glimmer in my eyes. I love to bat my lashes, I love to whisper sweet nothings.

I love being a MOM to my little girl and teaching her to be a lady.

The summer helps me embrace my womaness...I get energy and rays from the sun that speak to my inner spirit and it glows outward. I love how as the flowers bloom so do we. I love everything that is SUMMER.

So all that to say...Sun...Keep beaming your rays...

Love and get lost in it...

Patience grasshopper....

So many things inspire me and my thinking that it is easy for me to lose track of what the original inspiration was...if that makes sense. I have been in the space the last month, of re-evaluating my position in life, which consists of career, relationships, and self. I have been discovering many things that are taking me to new places and opening doors that I never visited and it is quite refreshing.

My latest inspiration has been OPRAH. I truly think she is one of the most beautiful beings of our existence. Her ability to make the human connection her "priority" is beyond amazing to me. It is because of her good intention and energy behind everything that she has done, that has catapulted her success to the level it is. All that to say, she said something recently that gave me an "aha" moment.

Just to preface this so it makes sense, I recently have been struggling with the idea of what I have chosen to do with my life. As much as I enjoy my 5th graders and the times we share each day, there are days when I truly question and ask myself "what was I thinking?" I deal with some of the most troubled and disadvantaged youth there is, and that is based on my location and demographic. Many would run when they see the intellect and challenges that these children face, BUT not one day did I say "I give up" nor did I stay home just to call out or went to work but not cared and didn't give my all.

What was pulling me out the bed everyday was this unidentified force and voice that kept saying "You must go...why wouldn't you? They are there"..then I remember one of my high school teachers telling me "half the job of anything you do is showing up." Well Oprah eloquently stated on her finale show something that my spirit had been telling me but my mind wasn't able to fully comprehend.

She basically stated that her show had been her platform for so many years and that she never missed one day in 25 years because she knew that her audience was waiting. She also knew that she had to do and give the very best she could while she was in the position she was in. I heard this and the light bulb went off for me. I know for a fact that teaching is not the end all for me, and there are many things I am called to do...but at this moment and at this time this is what I am doing and I must do it well. It is through this experience that will carry me to my next chapter. I must believe and trust in the plan GOD has for me and just be present.

My biggest problem I have always had in my adult life is I want everything FAST...NOW! This all comes from a lack pf patience. It took a beautiful person to come into my life and show me a lesson about patience and I realize now that God placed that individual there mainly for that. All we really have is the moment in front of us. What will we do with it? Surely not use it to wish about what we want, who we wish we were with, where we shouldbe, how much we want to make, or ask yourself "why me?"

Use the moments you have to shine your light as bright as you can to fully prepare yourself for the blessings that God will place in your life purposely. Every trial and tribulation is truly a lesson that you must master. Paying close attention to your life and doing things purposeful will always allow you to move ahead. Trust in the power of being still and control the energy you send out to those around you. We all are each others helpers.

I am so full of gratitude and truly pleased with the position I hold each day. Not one day goes by that one of my students don't hug me, compliment me or tell me how much they love me in some way. That is an indication that I have paid attention. This phase in my life is purposeful and I am doing exactly what I am supposed to at the moment. My students really touch and warm my heart to the core when I see them and they provide just as much light to me as I do to them. They teach me and allow me to grow closer to the me I need to be.

I will be still and listen and await the mission ahead but in doing so...I will be patient. I will love authentically and spread it so that it is contagious. We are who we attract period.

Love and get lost in it...

The berry is sweet....inside.

The things we choose to sit and pout our lip out about can be so revealing of the space we are in on the inside. When we are glowing and in a space of gratitude, rarely do we let people and places rise us up to show our ugly side. We just let it roll off our shoulders. When will we stop allowing things and people to affect us in ways that steal our joy and make us frown for way too long?

There is always someone else going through a hardhsip that is not so easily treated. There is always someone else whose load is too heavy for them to carry. I say as long as you have breathe, health and can make a deciasion about your next move ..then you should be smiling. You should be happy to still have another chance to do it all over. The time is now and the life you are living is yours to do as you may. Who has time to frown, have a sour puss face and hold a grudge..let it go..and as they say LET GOD! He can and will handle it all...

Keeping seeking your sweeteness...let it seep out your pours when you speak to your co-workers, family, friends....let it be contagious and let your smiles guide your path. You will get so much further.

XOXOXO!

With whom do you RELATE?

Any man who has the genuine love of a woman...(and this can be vice versa) has a tremendous blessing. To truly be in love with another individual past what they own, who they know, their material possessions, and what they can do for YOU, can sometimes seem non-existence in this day.

There was a time when people fell in love with someone based on who they were and what they stood for. They loved the character, integrity, respect, dreams and philosophies that another person possessed. Now a days they see how much can this guy buy me? What can he do for me? How big is his bank account? How fine he is. Who does he know that I can get around and try to get closer to advance myself? The list can go on. Forget actually having conversation and getting to know everything about the person.

OH...and it's not just women...men can participate in this as well.

Some men will be with a woman who can take care of their every need. They will secure a relationship that is suitable for what they need in their life for the moment. If a man has no motivation to get up and work, he will stay with a woman who is not the "one" for him just so he can live rent free, she can cook his meals, and all he has to do is lay her down on her back once in a while to keep her happy.

When a person is being used ...I believe they know it.

They know something is off and they are not being 100% loved in the way Love was intended, but they stay in a bad situation for as long as the comfort zone remains. Relationships are a cooperative effort. A partnership. Team work. In my opinion there should never be a relationship in which someone is doing most or all of the work. I am not saying there is something wrong with a man holding down a household and taking care of the bulk of the financial load, because many of our men were raised to do this, BUT, if you are blessed to have a good man, ladies at least take care of home. Take care of him. Make his life easier, be nurturing, catering and sensitive to the way he feels and the things he wants. Share in his joy and share his world. Be a part of what makes him happy, you are probably the main component of that happiness when you are at your best.

Men...if a lady is holding you down and doing all that she can to make it work for you, then do your share as well. Make her feel like a Queen. Make her feel beautiful without having to say a word. Pay attention to her, love her and be responsive to all her needs. Work to become best friends even though you are lovers. It's the best way to RELATE to your partner. Share your feelings your thoughts, dreams with each other and love with all you have.

Take time to evaluate what your self-worth is and how it relates to the one you lay next to. It may be an eye opener.

LOVE...

The high road

Sometimes we forget to celebrate the good in situations. I am gonna go on a limb and guess that it is extremely easy to look for the negative in every situation, in every word that is said, in every action that is done, and once it happens it's even easier to focus on it and to discuss it with someone else. This is a terrible disease. The unfortunate thing is there are many suffers of this disease and they may not know they are suffering from it. GOSSIPING.

Gossiping is one of the oldest and most toxic practices that you can indulge in regularly, but we choose to do it without a second thought. We do it without thinking about the people who is at the end of it, we destroy someones reputation and character in less than a second with the words we choose to affiliate someone with. The saddest part is when this disease erupts among people and places where only LOVE should be the common factor.

It's easy to take the easy way out and exude negative ideas and thoughts about another person, but challenge yourself today and in your tomorrows to refrain from that energy.

Challenge yourself to do what so many people don't do. Try seeing only the good in every situation, in every person, in every occurrence. The truth is it will be mishaps, and it will be things that happen that you would rather not experience, but, how much of your energy and time will you dedicate to it.

Have a wonderful GOSSIP free day!

My apologies....

Ever get tired of saying "I am sorry", feeling sorry, or thinking to yourself " I wish I didn't say it like that".

It makes you wonder...are you really that bad? Did I really sound too harsh. Did I sound like I did not care? Was my tone off? Did I not give enough of my time? Was I rude? Discerning? Mean?

Many times when we speak on others conditions and situations who we love, we come from a place of love and concern. When we disagree and we speak our minds, sometimes our mind offends their emotions.

When we hold someone close to our heart and our world the words sometimes come out with no chaser. We deliver how we feel and we are passionate. Our passion is what drives our world. If anything or anyone is worth anything to us, the passion is what sustains it.

I love hard and I fight harder. I admit I sometimes need to control my emotions, attitude and my delivery because as someone once told me "don't let your delivery dilute your message" ...very powerful statement. *winks*

We must all learn to pay attention to the fact that we all are different and that we all do not see things the same way. Our minds process information on all different types of levels and even if our intentions come from a sincere place they can be received from the wrong perspective.

When you speak today choose your words carefully, fully think and contemplate the message you would like to get across and think about the best possible way to translate your thoughts for your message to be received the way you intended it to.

BE KIND...BE PRESENT in all your moments....

XOXOXO

In the midst of the storm....

It is the feeling you get when you are already out and it starts pouring down rain and you have no umbrella.

It is the feeling you get when you are stuck at somebody you loves graduation and its boring but there is 3 more hours to go.

It is the feeling you get when your tank is running on empty but the signs say the gas station is 4 miles away. Desperation......What to do? Wanting to scream....

I think being in the midst of the storm is the best way to identify the spirit that lies within you. You will see what you are really made of when it all starts to come down..crumble right before your eyes. Will you give up on yourself, let your self down..or will you fight and conquer and keep going.

I don't think many of us realize it is the hard times and the rough patches that gives us our stripes. Builds up our character and proves to us every time that our spirit is what sustains us and it is bigger than just what the eye can see.

You can always remember while in the midst of the storm...that it will soon be over and things have no choice but to get better and brighten up.

Nothing is never enough to make you frown everyday, have a bad attitude, not show love and receive it or not smile. NOTHING!

We all are here, as a collective on the same plane trying to achieve one thing...the feeling of LOVE.

If its from a mate, a friend, a career, a hobby, a pet, an idea...we look for LOVE in all that we do, because it is the only pure and whole feeling that makes us feel complete.

Love freely and leave your heart open for it each day!

Have a wonderful LOVE gushed day..and look your battles in the eye for you will LOVE yourself even more!

"I like the way you think".

I am a fan of LOVE when I feel it, see it, hear it, or even dream it....It never fails to leave me inspired and feeling in touch with a force that is powerful and forever yearned for.

I heard our first lady say something extremely powerful in an interview with Oprah a couple days ago, that just moved my spirit to joy. Oprah was interviewing the 1st couple and asking them how they balance it all, and how envied they could be because they seem so perfectly in love. Michelle answered the question so gracefully and exquisitely. Here is an excerpt.

Oprah : Is this a marriage to be envied?

Michelle: I think we have a wonderful marriage. I love my husband, he is my best friend. But I always like to talk honestly about it, because I think about young couples coming up who think there are no struggles to get here. There are and that's part of it. The message is, work through the struggles, start out with somebody that you respect and you trust, so that when you hit the bumps that are inevitable, you always have that foundation. I tell Barack, as mad as he may make me, I look at him and say "I really LIKE you". I like you and I like the way you think and I like the person that you are, and its hard to stray too far and to be mad too long when the person you are with is someone you like.

So incredible and so well versed. This personally captures the essence of REAL, TRUE, GENUINE love for me. To actually LIKE the person before you LOVE them, will prove the strength and the dedication to you staying where you are. DO you LIKE him? Do you like her? Do you like her traits? Do you like who they are in relation to their world that you exist in? Do you like how they talk to people? How they handle situations? How they make people feel? How they THINK? How they live? What they like to do? What makes them tick?

The road and and path to love and having the ultimate level of understanding is not easy nor smooth. Even when Love is great and things seem too perfect, it takes your attention and commitment to maintaining it and keeping it that way. You have to always put that other person's feelings in mind and work together to making sure that the both of you are happy, and if that is not intense work then what it?

As humans, it is hard for us to be content all the time, we allow so many variables to come in and disturb our momentum and test our faith on what we believe to be "working". I 100% know and believe that love is TEAM WORK and it will Be the most important collaboration that you Will ever take part in, in your life.

When we have love, and stability we feel good. We feel alive and we are in touch with the higher consciousness that resides in us all. We allow the GOD in us to seep out and be a source of light and inspiration for all around us.

Allow GOD to work through you more. Accept love when it comes your way and always give it to others. Love in all capacities is what releases us to living the life that was intended. Give plenty of it...out.

LOVE.

Have a Tasty Tuesday.

Giving Thanks

I give thanks for good friends...love and the spirit that embodies giving. Without this effort within the human condition it means nothing. Give plenty, be in the spirit of serving others. I give Thanks on this day and I am grateful.

GIVE THANKS FOR IT ALL IN SPITE OF IT ALL...and speak aloud that you are grateful each and every day. So many of us focus on the things we want, the places we want to go. Give thanks for all that you have NOW.

Give thanks!!!!

Love you all! Eat and be grateful.

Happy 5th Birthday to MY Greatest Gift...

So today marks the birthday of my little Girl, who is turning 5, and I am filled with emotions. I wanted to share a poem I wrote about her the first week she came home...as a dedication to her on her 5th birthday.


MooMoo -- What is that?

That is the nickname I chose to call one of my treasures - one of the most profound, meaningful and remarkable beings in existence - My daughter.


She lights up my interior, one look onto her eyes and you will be beaming too...

She as cute as a button and smart as a whip, from her stinky diapers to the dribble on her bottom lip.

She is made from something that cannot be defined or explained,

God placed her in my care so her purpose wont go in vain...

Oh he knows her family wouldn't allow such things...

He knew he had to send only the best of the bunch,

DeAsia Divyne Bradley was built for greatness - and that train came right on time.

Thank you for my Treasure.

LOVE YOU MOOMOO! Happy Birthday!

We are each other's inspiration!

I have never been shy about praising my fellow sisters! No matter what age, race, or place you come from...If I see a beautiful woman I say "Damn, she is HOT"! If I like your ensemble I say "Wow, work it girl"! If I see your talent and you demonstrate it so gracefully and effortlessly I Thank you and I tell you "You are Dope".

I have been blessed to know and have some pretty amazing, creative, talented, strong and gorgeous sisters in my life! We may not all be close as cousins, I may see you once every season, we may talk every full moon..but you know its ALL love and I am sure to tell you every now and then THANK You for being a dynamic contrition to my world as it happens...to Me.

Today I received an email from a young lady I have known since I was 13. She has always been full of life, and has turned out to be an exceptional poet and writer...I give thanks to her for this piece that she emailed me today, because little does she know...it made me smile and found its place to me through its significance.

She has welcomed me to share: ENJOY....

MISS POLAY (Nia Crooks) here's to you....

Black curtains moving about amongst the sills of my bedroom windows
Dark spirits circling about
Again I ask self, what did I dream about?
A new day, a fresh start
Clean sheets of white paper to doodle upon
What's wrecking this brain of mine?
Chest full of emptiness and not a happy heart beat in sight
What's going on in the inner Ms. Crooks today that I pray doesn't lead into tonight
I ran away from yesterday & made it all the way to today
So my past isn't making me feel this way
Something or some things are missing this day
God grab my hand and take this feeling away
The more of "ME" is acting less
What will be the avenue of my next step
My Sgt. Green Eyes asked, what am I gonna do with this life?
I didn't say this, but my answer was to just be his wife
Who is he, I laugh @ self
My purpose lately is just to have a fixed health
The crazy spree I've spirled down surgery after surgery the body of a broken clown
Oh wait, its the trial that's raping my brain
Taking the stand from the taxi hit & to a judge & jury I must explain
Nerves of nervousness is what's clouding my brain
Hoping to have the perfect testimony & try not to appear insane
When a overwhelming feeling strikes I blank brain
Sometimes I forget my very own name
Loving that Dad & Gramps will be by my side
Wait..., in my dream I saw my Holy side
So this is not emptiness I feel or a bad spirit circling my room
Its good energy delivered to me by, you know whom
God you're a silly Goose sometimes
You wreck my brain then make me rewind
Its time to fill up with your good graces
And get ready to experience new places & spaces
So its not nothingness, doubt, hurt, pain or negative I feel
Its the feeling of being healed
The sins that I commit wash away over night
And in the morning God gives me a new chance to fight
Amaya still belly swimming as I smirk my face
Happiness decorating all over the place
See this is why I write so I can fill my tank
With words from the heart and my purity place
The "ME" you may know, maybe so many "ME"'s
But the one thing I can prove is only my God holds my hearts key
He opened it up today and my writers block stepped down
These are the words from a frown turned upside down

@POLAY

Let it resonate....

Love you all.. HAPPY TUESDAY!